I feel like the worst girlfriend in the world right now. My body is simply non compliant and it means that I won’t be going to Dublin. And since I won’t be going, it means that my sweetie won’t be going. That feels horrible. I’d rather her go alone and enjoy herself than not go at all but she’s not budging on that.
I feel guilty for not getting my body under better control. My anxiety automatically makes me feel like she’s gonna leave me for every reason under the sun so that’s stressing me out. I need to feel better so I’m gonna do what I have to as far as my health is concerned. I can’t keep letting it disrupt my life 😩. I have to make sure that I never have to cancel plans on my sweetie again.